Hmm

Been through tough situation for the past two days.

And it's weird through.

Reflect back to the past. I felt that what I did what just meaningless.

After a few hours of thinking, what I did what really immature, childish, inconsiderate, irrelevant, self-centered, unthoughtful, unrealistic, aloof, naive, fearful, thats what Carm wrote on her blog. But I totally agreed with it.

I gave some thought into it. And I been thinking for the past few days. I should start growing up despite of the problems that are awaiting me. But that dosen't mean that I'm not going to be the same old me. And I will try my best to change myself to be a better person. Recognise this quote? lol.

Well, time will tells us everything. I've been through so far in my life. I never felt this way before. It's very meaningful to me at least. I will start building up myself. To be a confident person that can do thing sucessfully. Thats what I hope for. And for some reason, I just can't forget about something. Which really hurt my heart.

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One hell day

What a fucking day I had gone through today. One hell of fucking day I can tell you.

1st of all, what the fuck is wrong with all those small girls? Stare at me as if I kill your parents. They are just being fucking rude la. Didn't learn manners from her parents, yala I killed the parents already what. Where to learn the manners? -_-
Fuck all the bitches that they should who they are la. Too many bitches already. Give those bitches a hell of lessons.

LOL those are pathetic, lot of shit coming after me la... WTF man... This day we can actually see a lot of things. But all those blury bastards and bitches duno how to see only wut...blind wan ma... duno what to say la..damn those idiots la..LOL bastards and bitches...they should noe who they are...

And thank god today still got Nikki's album launching. Too bad I missed her showcase. But still I got her autograph..yipeee.. :P

Another week

LOL.. I don't know what to say

Doing nothing at home. Somehow started to regret of not working la..LOL..not anybody's fault also. And feel like going to karaoking. I like the Medley song by Leo Ku. Damn nice... Watched King Kong today. Was kindda ok la... 3 hours for Rm5. LOL. And been thinking hard who to find for this weekend's futsal tournament. I suck in futsal. LOL

Pretty suck la when everything is faulty. And guess what? My phone is still at the workshop. 2 days later I can get it back..hheeheh... Send my MP3 player to the computer shop for warrenty.. computer is under repair... LOL...and later going to send the camera for service... -_-!!!

LOL anyway. Now I'm very blur. Like ghost wondering around. Duno what shld I do or what la. About the Idol thingy. Had to end that up once and for all. For one year la LOL!!!! So many conspirasy going around man.. LOL...getting bored of it la..no excitment langsung.. LOL.. summore my blog had attracted so many people la.. LOL...
duno what to say la..

LOL sorry yen..duno what to write already...
:P

What A Day :)

Hahahaha, I'm not apologising about those few posts that I had made.. But just wanna say I'm fine now.. Thanks for everybody's concern. You guys are very nice, love ya people and you guys know who you are. =)

Today is 10th Of December, another day to remember. LOL. Gathering with Nita. Actually today is the day when Carm gets her chance to come down and KL to meet with Nita. So actually had to go through so trouble to pick Carm from Ipoh. But thanks to everyone and the plan is working. Since Finrod is coming so might as well going to The Curve with him. Met up with him around 9.30am. Waited for the shuttle bus to Kelana Jaya LRT around 45 minutes and after that took a cab to The Curve.

Then reached The Curve around 10.45am. Went to RedBox because we got a reservation there. LOL and everyone had to go there la like duh. LOL. So went there, get everything done and start going to the room. And actually that is the 1st time I'm going karaoke. LOL. Sang a few songs while waiting =P. Hmmm then Odiee together with Peggy, Carm and FunnyFace came. Sang again till Azam came with his friends. Trish & Xerra had ffk all of us. LOL Then they sang some song and went out for something. Then we continue to sing until around 12.30pm, Nita arrived. Continue to sing and forced her to sing some of her songs when she sang during spectaculars. Hmm, and I had a duet with her. The "Hou Sem Fen Sau" la. LOL and she sang a few songs with Azam and finally duet with here again, not exactly both of us. Joined by Peggy also. We sang If I Ain't Got You. Got style wan la!! LOL, ask those who were present. =)

After that, we went to the Ikano Powercenter's foodcourt. Nita had to fill herselves with chicken. LOL, 1/4 of the chicken followed by another 1/4 of chicken, tapanyaki chicken. OMG LOL rofl.... Really funny la during that whole afternoon. It was really fun and interesting when you get to talk to Nita for a long period of time. I really starting to understand her and really like her already. At least more than last time. It's like back to square one. LOL! The content that we talked today.. A lot...cannot remember :P We chatted from around 2.30pm till 6.30pm. LOL! Imagine that... :P We had drinks, drinks and drinks. LOL

And finally the climax part. We are going to Tesco's KFC to makan. So FunnyFace, Sookie, Odiee and Peggy in one car while Carm, Finrod, Nita, Alex and I were in one car. While we are going there. We passed one bookstore and Nita said her cover in the FHM magazine is there. So went to check it out ler. How nice of Nita that she actually agreed to give us three the magazine for free. =) Thankssss =P. Then went there and started to order food and drinks. Ordered a barell which is the largest set of KFC. I think 21 pieces of chicken in it ar. LOL. And finished, sommmore tambah lagi. Another emm 9 pieces. God that was sick. I ate around 7-9 pieces of chicken. So damn full!!! LOL. And been talking again and again. Man we really don't have a ending when it comes to talking =P LOL!!! And finally getting some of autograph and pictures. And went back home with a relief and a happy mood which I didn't felt for long long time.









Due to high demand of the prostitude picture, I shall post it here.. ROFL LOL!!!

What The?????

WHAT THE????????????????

This was taken during the Zoo Negara trip with Rumah Soleha kids and guess what?
Some bastard just making fun of me...What the Fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!The someone is a bastard who is a journalist... And good friends with some weirdo... No need to say who all of u also noe...

WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What the hell?

I'm serious getting tired of all the shits...
Whatever you call that.
There is a lot of things in my mind now. More shits and trouble happened.
What? Don't ask me what or why because I don't know? lol
This world? There is nothing left for me except the screwed up books.
Guess I'm gonna have to love them till I'm graduate.
So what the hell I'm still hesitating?
Emm.. Why?
Because I'm not getting enough of it?
I'm just being foolish. Stupid me.....
I'm the stupidest person among all the people there.
Being fool without knowing a single thing.
That really pathetic isn't it? Being fool by those bastards and bitches.
Whomever thinks that they are the bastards and bitches.
Fuck off man, I don't need sympathies from you all.
You just go ahead and find some other people and screw them.
And one last time, get the hell out of my life.
I don't need people like you all to get into my life.
So you can just save your breath and do something else rather than fooling me.
All the backstabbers, hyprocrites...Dammit, cant they just get a life.
A bunch of fuckers...lurking around like idiots...
What do I have to say? Now I finally realise that people are just disgusting...
They are some god-know-what they are capable of doing things......



I felt abandon? Maybe that's true.
But 1 thing for sure I still have friends that will stand by my side. Rather than backstabbing, bitching, abandon me.
Thank god these people are here. They hear me out. Didn't get feddap of whatever I'm saying compared to other people out there. At least I had that, what about all of you?????

And I'm really thankful for all these people, always be in my side when I am fine and I am in shits of trouble.... =)

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NObody can ever understand me and understand my feelings and how i feel.........

Another bitching session on a boring day

The next person I'm bitching about is serious a young teenage girl, just finished the goverment exam. The one that giving everybody the hint the one that loves posing and pushing her boobs up. LOL!!! So, you all pandai-pandai know who I'm talking about la..

"I'm getting irritated by all your nonsense. I'm annoyed by the way you keep complaining to me. So what if he doesn't reply you? GET THE HINT. He DOESN'T want to talk to you. STOP disturbing him. It'll be good for me and him. It'll be good for you also since you won't get hurt badly.

Don't waste your time beauty-fying yourself girl. It wastes your time since you won't look any better after wasting an hour on your hair. = )

So, get the hint.! " - Reuters

Isn't it the message is clear?

Bye..Done bitching for the day


ps. ur posing in pictures is so horrible, worst than the worst model in indonesia..wakakakaka

and stop being so perasan la... wakakakakaka seriously nobody care about u..so get urself a life...wakakakaka

What a weirdo~

em.. I guess everyone here know which weirdo I'm talking about? You know? The sesat fella everytime thinks he's invited to everything. Still don't know? The weirdo which has some strange appearence and low tone voice like GetaranJiwa guy. Worst than that. And lastly, he & his best friend been stalking the idols for the past months. Yeah thats him.

What about him? Why blog about some bastards like him? Let me tell you why.
That bastard happily took my blog code without telling me. My hard work being taken from him. Screw him.

And now, things about him.

> He's a pure weirdo, expecting people to write back cards to him after he wrote to them. What do he think he is? Big man or VIP? "VIP" got la...

> Been calling people for a lot of times, 24/7 asking about idols. Idols Idols Idols. NO life man.

> He thinks he is likable by every idols. My gosh... Someone likes him, that person is a blind or same species as him. Well we do have one that is same species as him.

> Hugging and kissing the female idol's hand. Like people didn't gave u the damn permission to do all the kind of stuff.. Bloody sex maniac, lucky they are kind enough not to call police to arrest you for mollesting.

> Bothering people. Talking crap, rubbish. Not making any damn sense at all.

here are a few unfortunate event that happen
- He's been stalking/bothering/calling Farah's mum as well as Aunty Maggie. Oh god, he's a real bastard. Mummy didn't teach him anything about manners.

- He's been kacauing Kenny, asking things about Jac and ask him to do him favours. 24/7, calling him by all alternative, cellphone, public phone, house phone.

- Been kacau the idols. Name it, you got it. From talking non-stop with all the nonsense(No logic) until get themselves uninvited to the idol's home. What a bastard they can be

- He's been kacauing Aja,Revo etc etc. Always asking her some useless questions, been trashing her blog owned by Winter. Annoyed all of us.

- Bring his konco which is the journalist.The weird journalist which I will enlighten everyone later. And buat kacau everywhere. 2 good friends really damn freaking annoying.. I wonder why ain't someone from Tanjung Rambutan accept those 2 people's application?

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The journalist.
Weird? YES.
Why? Perhatikan penyataan di bawah
Zahid from AF2 says hi to you.
Farah from AF2 wishes you a good luck in your career

And
Do you wanna pass any message to Kaer?

Got it?

Normally people will just say hi or what? Instead, this particular journalist wanted to be so-called "special", wanna to be well-known by those artists. And thats how he got his so-called "fame". And he's like a dog more than a journalist. Pretend to be a messenger. And summore when taking picture want the artist to pose. Bla Bla Bla, like they had to follow as he says. And get the artist's phone number or thier family member's number and give it to his friend. No manners at all. Both of them don't have any manners, wonder how thier parents tolenrate them? Not respecting other people's privacy and menerokai thier privacy. This is bad, Bad dog.

What else I had to say?

AVOID THESE 2 PEOPLE!!!!

Don't get yourself into trouble which involves them. Run as they approach you. Bring pepper spray to prevent from being touched by them.!!!!

Life?

Life isn't bad for me till like around these holidays? Why? Ask other people about it. I'm so tired of explaining things to people.

Ok, I'll just roughly brief everyone here about what happen to me during holidays.

Went to all these functions, not sure if left out any

> Hari Raya/Hari Jadi bersama Nita
> RTM Show with Top3 idols
> Farah's Open House
> Farah's Surprise birthday party
> Daniel/Nita in Estee Laudren
> Seremban Trip
> 6E small gathering/Ostro's showcase/Bring Myn Out/Hang out at Raymond's
> Zoo Negara Trip
> Mandy's birthday at 1U
> Daniel's autograph session
> Kaiyeh's Birthday

duno how many i left out lol

anyway...those were the happening things that I had went..sweet memories huh? :P

here comes the worst part
Why I'm Being Fired?

> The manager complaints about me?
> Why?
> Here's how the ass. manager told me
> "Our company found out that you're not suitable in F&B line and thus we had to terminate you to give others opputunity to work. And the way that you had said just now, didn't make me want to give you a chance to employ you again. And the manager did complaint about you always. I'm really sorry about that and our company wishes you all the best in your future."

Like wtf? I noe the manager always dosen't like me. As in keeps looking at me. Giving some stupid excuses like, Don't always look at me ar... I will knock ur head...Cmon, ur not as pretty as Paris Hilton, No big boobs like Pamela Anderson. Why the hell should I keep looking at you. You lousy smoker manager.. -_-! And then.. people in there complaint about me not friendly? What is your problem people?? And then heard the damn manager said :"Ei dun give me some bullshit excuses, I dont wanna hear that. Blablabla" All those craps. That is called tindas worker... Hell I don't enjoy working in that particular restaurant because of the manager...All the damn manager's fault and I'm jobless..LOL...

Anyway, Peggy had recommanded me to Nestle, part time promoter. And she also asked me to go to her office and help her settle her tech thingy. aka computers. :P At least I still have some income go to my pocket...To cover all my expanses... lalalala

Guess why I'm terminated?

Unfriendly, Not Puntcual, Not willing to sacrifice time going out =P like who will do that? :P But working had to be responsible and I guess I haven't ready for that yet. Still in playing mood =P

A week later Carm will be coming down KL for Nita's Gathering. hahahha :P
-fin-










Guess not
My confession










I'm really getting a bit annoyed with some people. LOL. Not to meant that I'm being sensetive/jealous or anything la. This person keeps telling me how the person misses another person very much. I'm not getting it, if you miss one person just go ahead and tell the person that and marry him if you want to. I know both of the person misses each other, no need to tell other people wan. Or they want everybody else that they know that both of them are loving couples? In this point I'm so feddap with all these. Since I'm talking about this? Might as well express more, I just found out that I couldn't get connection with this person. I couldn't understand her and the person couldn't understand me. Weird huh? And we seems to be very close and actually we're not? We're in diffrent world..Totally diffrent. Couldn't imagine how to face with the person anymore. Wonldn't think much about this. Let things go naturally.

And recently I just get myself involve in some shits that I'm not suppose to get into. But apparently I did. I'm so dumb to ever do that. Just because someone talked to me about the particular person. And I'm just being nice to warn the person before the person went into deeper stage which can't cure anymore. And suddenly from a good guy, I became a bad guy. WTF!!! At this point I'm so freaking pissed off. Just I didn't wanna show it to everyone. U think I'm happy on what happen during that day? No! And everyone started to ask me, what did U did to the person??? I'm the criminal now.. Just because the friend whom I talked to told me about this doesn't mean that everyone must know about it? And what happen during that night shouldn't be known by everyone and apparently it did. Thanks to all the people that contributed in it. And my friend & I were innocently being dragged into all these shits. We were being questioned by tons of people.... U noe. people these days, big mouth and couldn't shut thier damn mouth up. And I don't really like Pinkies at all. Shouldn't get involve into the politic of Pinkies aka Daniel Fan Club. Not my bisness at all. Why should I do that? I'm just being stupid to do that. And apparently DFC had so many internal problems aka politicall stuff happening in thier fan club. How complicated it is huh?? Guess it's natural laa... :P So conclution is, I won't get into Pinkies/DFC's problem again. Whatever they do is not my bisness. I'm just an ordinary observer. :P


=Officially FIN-

LOL

Emm

Guess what??? I'm terminated by the manager....

lalalala
i'm free now..got nothing to do!!